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Allison Baden-Clay's secret letter discovered

Allison Baden-Clay wrote a secret letter to her husband three days after she discovered he was having an affair demanding answers from him and saying she planned a "fresh start" for their marriage.

The letter, discovered on Allison's computer, was never used as evidence in court.

Gerard Baden-Clay has been sentenced to life in prison with a 15-year non-parole period for killing her and dumping her body in Kholo Creek, Brisbane, on April 19, 2012.

Allison discovered he had an affair in September 2011 and penned a letter stipulating terms for their reconciliation including date nights and counseling.

Included in the letter were journal-like entries of how she had come to deal with her husband's infidelity.

Read the full, unedited letter by Allison here.

"Well I am trying to keep it together on a day to day basis-only to vent and question on a Sunday night. The reason I am doing this is because I don’t want to make his life too miserable and risk him looking somewhere else for fun AGAIN."

"And then I think of her...the dirty b***h that she is – she knew me and she was sleeping with some-one else’s husband even while she was still with her partner."


But in early 2012 Gerard resumed his affair with Toni McHugh, promising his mistress that he was going to leave his wife, Allison.

At the time he was almost a million dollars in debt. Allison had life insurance for almost that amount.

On October 19 Gerard told his mistress that it was only a matter of time before he ended the marriage.

That night Allison was murdered.

After she discovered the affair Gerard asked McHugh to resign from his struggling real-estate business and Allison came to work there, a sacrifice she found particularly hard.

"Unfairness of it all…I get a husband back who is physically and emotionally exhausted, the business is on the brink of bankruptcy and who is left now to support him and save the business-ME-the hopeless pathetic, fat, smelly wife that after 11 years he had enough of," Allison wrote.

"I walked straight into your world and had to handle everything that involved including the everyday humiliation of working in an office where every-one knows about your affair."

During the trial Gerard claimed his wife suffered debilitating bouts of depression and the defense suggested she had thrown herself from the bridge above the creek.

But close friends and family insist Allison was not suicidal.

"I draw a blank. That is not the Allison I know, knew or, that is not the Allison I knew or the Allison that I remember. The word depression and Allison Dickie in my eyes don’t go together," close friend Linda told Sunday Night.

Linda had traveled the world with Allison and been a bridesmaid at her wedding, and stayed close after they moved to different states.

"Allison was always smiling. She was always happy and she had a great laugh and a great giggle. She was a beautiful person. I will never forget that smile,"

When she heard her friend was missing, Linda said she hoped she would call on her for help.

"One thing is for certain is that she didn’t take herself there and jump. She was a strong, accomplished woman, where she ended up was not where she deserved to be found."

She was discovered in the creek 10 days later.

Allison's cousin Jodie Dunn told Sunday Night Gerard had become increasingly controlling and would only let her meet Allison at the shopping centre.

"She was being isolated by that stage," Jodie said.

"He used to have baby monitors on in the house in reverse so he could hear everything that was going on. He was financially controlling, she didn’t have access to a credit card."

Allison's Aunt also provided this statement to Sunday Night condemning Gerard and domestic abuse:


Even after Allison's body was found, Gerard began exerting control over his daughters by not letting Allison's mother see them.

"It was the most heartbreaking conversation I've ever witnessed. I was holding her hand and literally she was begging and he just said, "I don’t think its appropriate at this moment for you to see their girls"." Jodie Dunn said.

"She'd just been told her daughter was dead and he wouldn’t let her see the granddaughters.

"He just said no, no, no. The cruelty of that alone, on top of what I already thought — that he killed her — I just couldn’t believe he could be so heartless."

Gerard Baden-Clay was found guilty of murdering his wife and sentenced to life in prison on July 15, 2014. He appealed his sentence two days later.

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