Julia Roberts' half-sister was consumed by depression brought on by family angst when she chose to end her life in February, according to the suicide note she left for her fiance.
Nancy Motes, 37, died after taking a drug overdose and now, in a bitter handwritten note obtained by editors at the MailOnline.com, she's pointing the finger at family members.
"My mother and siblings drove me into the deepest depression," she wrote.
"I've suffered thru (sic) this disease all my life, however it has never been this bad. I burst into tears every morning (because) I woke up."
Motes body was discovered on February 9 by her fiance, John Dilbeck.
In the note, she calls him her "one true love".
"I know this will effect (sic) you the most & I can't apologise enough. I was truly blessed & lucky to have you as my true love and best friend. I will carry you with me forever," the note said.
Roberts pulled out of a series of awards season appearances in February after Motes died.
The actress talked about the loss in a Wall Street Journal Magazine interview, saying she was heartbroken by the tragedy.
"There aren't words to explain what any of us have been through in these last 20 days. It's hour by hour some days but you just keep looking ahead," she told the magazine.
"You don't want anything bad to happen to anyone but there are so many tragic, painful, inexplicable things in the world.
"It's so hard to formulate a sentence about it outside the weepy huddle of my family."
But in May Dilbeck claimed Roberts grief was insincere, insisting that having her at Motes funeral "would be the last thing Nancy wanted."
"I feel that for anyone who knows Nancy would know that having her sister speak at her funeral it would be the last thing she wanted for her funeral to be all about Julia," UK's Daily Mail reported then.
Dilbeck also claimed he and others Motes was close to were deliberately excluded from the funeral her family.
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