A child abuse victim has broken down as he told a judge of bottling up the crimes for 45 years after nothing was done when he reported the abuser to his Marist Brothers school headmaster.
"You wouldn't want to spend one minute in my head - it's a jumbled up mess," he said in the NSW District Court on Friday.
He read out his victim impact statement at the sentence hearing of William Wade, known as Brother Christopher, who has pleaded guilty to concealing child sexual abuse crimes of Catholic colleagues.
Wade admitted failing to provide information to police in 2014 during child abuse investigations into Darcy O'Sullivan, known as Brother Dominic, and Francis Cable, known as Brother Romuald, when they were at the Hamilton Marist school in Newcastle in the late 1960 and 1970s.
Wade, 83, was jailed for at least 18 months in 2017 after being found guilty of one count of indecently assaulting a boy, aged 13 or 14, at Hamilton Marist school in 1976, and two counts of indecently assaulting a 13-year-old boy at Kogarah Marists in 1980.
In Friday's victim impact statement, the man said that in 1974 he decided to tell the principal, Wade, of being abused by Brother Dominic.
"I said 'Brother Dominic has been touching kids in the class including me and we don't like it'," he said.
Wade asked no questions saying he would look after it, but the abuse continued.
The man said he also told his grandparents and mother, but they said Brother Dominic "was only trying to show his affection" and made him out to be a liar.
He then didn't tell anyone for 45 years.
"I could not be let to feel that low ever again," he said.
"I have been ashamed of myself for most of my life.
"I thought I had done something wrong."
The other boys teased him calling him "homo and faggot" and "Dom's pet".
"I am a catastrophe waiting to happen and I am amazed I have got this far."
Wade put him in the hands of a sexual predator by knowingly and willingly allowing it to go on, he said.
Noting Wade's charges related to the 2014 investigation, Acting Judge Michael Adams said he was not to be punished for his silence in 1975 which was not a criminal offence at the time.
While his silence may have been a grave moral offence, courts could only punish people for breaches of the law.
When police spoke to Wade in 2014, his two colleagues had already been charged and have since been convicted of sex crimes.
Although he pleaded guilty to the offences, Wade says he has no recollection of abuse complaints being made to him.
He will be sentenced on a later date.