Meghan Markle told Oprah Winfrey in an interview on Sunday night that she contemplated suicide during her time as a working royal.
“I just didn’t see a solution,” Meghan said in heartbreaking admission.
“Look, I was really ashamed to have to say it at the time and ashamed to have to admit it to Harry especially, but I knew that if I didn’t say that I would do it,” the duchess added. “I just didn’t want to be alive anymore.”
“It takes so much courage to admit you need help,” she said, “to admit that you need help, to admit how dark of a place you’re in.”
Meghan said that she went to Human Resources but was told “There is nothing we can do to help you, because you’re not a paid member of the institution” and wasn’t allowed to seek help “because it wouldn’t be good for the institution.”
Meghan clarified that when she said “the institution,” she was referring to several people and that, when she was feeling suicidal, she went to one of the most senior people for help.
“I share this because there’s so many people who are afraid to voice that they need help. And I know personally how hard it is to not just voice it, but when you voice it to be told no. And so I went to human resources. And I said ‘I need help,’” the duchess said, adding, “because at my old job there was a union and they would protect me.”
“They said, ‘My heart goes out to you because I see how bad it is. But there’s nothing we can do to protect you because you’re not a paid employee.’”
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Bombshells from Oprah, Harry and Meghan’s interview:
Meghan says there were racist concerns over Archie’s skin colour ― before he was born.
The Duchess of Sussex said she contemplated suicide and was denied help.
The palace reportedly wouldn’t “tell the truth” to protect the Sussexes.
Harry says he felt “trapped within the system” of the royal family.
Meghan says Kate Middleton made her cry, despite reports saying the opposite.
Harry and Meghan dropped a wedding bombshell at the very beginning of the interview.
Harry heartbreakingly compared his wife’s plight to that of his late mother, Princess Diana.
Meghan and Harry told Oprah the sex of their second child!
This article originally appeared on HuffPost Australia and has been updated.