Mike Hussey rejected an offer of a farewell match for Australia because he believed playing for his country should be on merit rather than as an act of charity.
But he revealed that his "head was spinning" and he would not have been able to take a catch on the last day of his Test career at the SCG in January after being informed immediately before play that he had been dropped from the one-day team.
National selector John Inverarity had just told Hussey that he would not be picked in the one-day series against Sri Lanka or the West Indies but could have a farewell match at the WACA Ground a month later.
"I spoke to John Inverarity literally just before I went out to field on the last day of my last Test and I was glad they didn't hit a catch to me because my head was spinning all over the place," Hussey said.
"John offered me one game of the series at the WACA to say goodbye but I did not want to accept that.
"I don't think playing for Australia is a charitable thing - you have to earn and deserve it.
"I did not want to accept a charity farewell game.
"I told John I would like to be selected for a whole series and to help Australia win a series rather than one farewell match."
Hussey was initially shocked at the decision to dump him from the one-day team immediately following his surprise retirement from Test ranks, but said he had come to understand the selectors' thinking.
Inverarity said at the time that forthcoming one-day selections would focus on the 2015 World Cup and Hussey's removal would provide opportunities for other players to gain experience.
"Initially I was quite shocked, but I can understand where the selectors were coming from," Hussey said.
Hussey has denied rumours that he fell out with captain Michael Clarke over the location of the celebrations following the win over Sri Lanka at the SCG in his final Test.But a widely circulated email that made the claim in the days after Hussey's retirement also stated that the player was offered the WACA farewell that he confirmed this week.
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