Singer Morrissey has disclosed details of how his first relationship with a man started in his 30s.
He also told how he later discussed becoming a father with a close female companion.
The ex-Smiths star has revealed aspects of his personal life in a memoir, Autobiography, in which he talks about being touched by a male teacher in his early teens.
He begins with how he cheated death as a baby, in hospital for months as his parents were warned he would not survive a mystery illness.
The former The Smiths star suffered an unknown condition shortly after he was born in 1959 and his mother and father were advised by doctors to prepare for the worst.
Doctors at a Manchester hospital performed surgery on the young boy's stomach and throat and he managed to survive by the skin of his teeth.
He also grumbles at length about the injustices of a court case about the band's royalties in the 457-page book, as well as discussing his bitterness about record deals and his brushes with many famous names he has encountered.
He reveals he was in his mid-30s when he met Jake Walters at a dinner in Notting Hill.
Morrissey wrote: "Jake and I fell together in deep collusion whereby the thorough and personal could be the only possible way and we ate up each minute of the day.
"There will be no secrets of flesh or fantasy; he is me and I am he.
"We managed to parrot on non-stop for two years in a jocular fourth-form stew of genius and silliness."
The musician discusses an incident with a male teacher as he covers his early years.
He points out the member of staff took an interest in him, massaging his hurt wrist with "slow and sensual strokes" and claims the same man was eyeing him up as he dried himself after a shower following a games lesson.
Morrissey, 54, also talks about his strong attachment to Iranian-born friend Tina Dehghani, whom he met while living in Los Angeles, saying of her: "Tina is my first experience of uncluttered commitment."
"We take our place together almost without noticing," he wrote. And of their discussion about children, he said: "Tina and I discuss the unthinkable act of producing a mewling miniature monster."
Morrissey paints a vivid picture of his early years, with discussions of the merits of the TV shows he remembered as a child.
And his writing is as scabrous as the interviews he has given over the past three decades.
He calls his colleague Mike Joyce a "pounder drummer" when he discusses what he thought were the injustices of a long court case in which Joyce and bass player Andy Rourke sought a 25 per cent share of the band's earnings.
And he calls guitarist Johnny Marr "a virtuoso of to-ing and fro-ing, you might swear that you are in the company of identical triplets as Johnny stands before you".
Morrissey provides a forensic analysis of the court case - which he and fellow songwriter Marr lost - over many pages as he takes apart the witnesses, the lawyers and the judge. And he rails against the decision to increase the share of profits afforded to bandmates Joyce and Rourke, which was upheld on appeal.
The star also talks of his unhappiness with Geoff Travis, the man who signed them to his record label Rough Trade, even though he not been interested in hearing their demo until Marr insisted.
He claims they were poorly treated by Travis, despite the label's success being built on The Smiths.Morrissey also talks about refusing to answer the door to singer Sandie Shaw - whom he speaks about with bitterness despite often being considered a friend - which resulted in her sidling along a ledge outside his flat to talk to him through the window.